Man In The Gutter
Message written byKen
September 17, 2006 at 09:11:02:
Just the other day I was walking down the street and not thinking about much of anything. I was feeling kind of sorry for myself, having just gone through another divorce. The only friend I had was the alcohol that I consumed every day. The only home I had was wherever the next bar was located. No goals, no ambition, no feeling of self-worth. Lying, conning, and pawning were just part of my everyday routine. I had always said that I didnt like people; now I understood I didnt even like myself.
At this time, wandering down the street with no destination or purpose, I saw a man lying in the gutter. People would stop and look at him and walk on by. As I got closer, I saw that he would not even turn around to see if anybody would help him. From the looks of him, he looked like he had been to hell and back. Heck! He kind of looked like I felt.
Something told me that I should stop to offer my help, but heck, what did I have to offer him? I wasnt much better off than he was. As I started to walk past this beaten and lost soul, I came to a stop right behind him -- almost like an invisible hand stopped me. I said to the Man In The Gutter, " Is there anything I can do for you, or help you up? " The man said nothing. I then asked him why he didnt accept any help from people passing by. He then uttered his first words. " I have been waiting for you." In confusion I said to the man, " Why me, Im nobody, I dont even know who I am or where Im going." I again said, " Why me? " and the man replied, " You are the only one that can help me, and I have been waiting so very long for you to come by and save me."
I stood there with a tear in my eye, and for the first time in a long time I felt compassion and love for someone I didnt even know. I reached my hand down and helped this man to is feet. I asked him if he could turn around so I could see into his eyes and thank him for making me feel important. It was at this time he replied, " Go look into the mirror and you shall look into the eyes of the man you have helped. This man shall become your new best friend, and will love you forever. " At this time the man vanished into thin air, but that Man In The Gutter did leave me with a few gifts to share with others -- self-pride, self-worth, and forgivness to all. And oh yes - my new best friend. Find him/her they need you.
A brutal, but very timely accident and a stay of three years in a nursing home. Oh! How enriched I have been to have met The Man In The Gutter.
Alochol, Drug Abuse equals the Man In The Gutter. Dedication, Perseverance, and Love of Self equals Sobriety.
Reaching For Joy